i hate how sometimes i have to say “my stomach hurts” or “my head hurts” when someone asks me to do something that i can’t do instead of being honest and saying “i have no energy” or “i’m really upset and i can’t bring myself to perform simple tasks” or “im emotionally exhausted” because physical pain is taken more seriously than mental pain, even though sometimes mental pain is ten times as bad
Weird tmi and I don’t know how anyone could take this as tw but just in case~
Throughout the day whenever I’m not standing up I always catch myself squeezing my muscles. Specifically booty muscles. Like that’s going to burn more calories and keep it from going “flabby”
This is so awkward and I know it’s part of OE
I wish I knew how to stop lol
Girl. I know this so well. Also, in class or at work constantly engaging my core. And I’m like. Stop. Not normal. You do not need to flex your abs when greeting people at a restaurant or taking notes on Shakespeare.
I hate cleaning the blender after making a smoothie.
Today was my long run, 8 miles. 7.9 to be specific. Yeah, yell at me. Anyway, after I was done I started crying. Not even happy tears. Like everything bad that was inside of me welled up and manifested as tears. It didn’t help that my boyfriend wasn’t letting me live down the fact that I “ONLY” ran 7.9 not 8 like I promised. I know he was trying to give me tough-love as encouragement to work harder, but clearly he couldn’t tell I was having a moment. I know that runner’s high is real, so it makes sense that you could get a negative catharsis also.