Shouldn’t have checked the scale today especially after a holiday weekend.

Whatever. 

Its fine.

Worked out.

Planned out my meals for today.

I’ll reach my goals.

Eventually.

I should not have drank so much last night.

And by so much, I mean anything.

All the empty calories and dehydration.

At least it was fun.

Now off to the gym despite my tummy ache and migraine. 

kaferinisms:

Weird tmi and I don’t know how anyone could take this as tw but just in case~

Throughout the day whenever I’m not standing up I always catch myself squeezing my muscles. Specifically booty muscles. Like that’s going to burn more calories and keep it from going “flabby”

This is so awkward and I know it’s part of OE

I wish I knew how to stop lol

Girl. I know this so well. Also, in class or at work constantly engaging my core. And I’m like. Stop. Not normal. You do not need to flex your abs when greeting people at a restaurant or taking notes on Shakespeare. 

I hate cleaning the blender after making a smoothie. 

UGHHH. 

Today was my long run, 8 miles. 
7.9 to be specific. Yeah, yell at me.
Anyway, after I was done I started crying. Not even happy tears.
Like everything bad that was inside of me welled up and manifested as tears.
It didn’t help that my boyfriend wasn’t letting me live down the fact that I “ONLY” ran 7.9 not 8 like I promised. 
I know he was trying to give me tough-love as encouragement to work harder, but clearly he couldn’t tell I was having a moment. 
I know that runner’s high is real, so it makes sense that you could get a negative catharsis also.

Has this happened to anyone else?

Run feels, man. All the run feels. 

So I posted the below photo set of my progress on my Facebook wall that same day. 

You know what my boyfriend’s mom texted him? 
Warnings about how my “sexually provocative pictures” are not a smart career move.

Um. 

A) I’m a dancer and musical theatre performer. I wear less clothing in my dance classes and some performances than what is pictured.

B) Pictures of a fit body will definitely fair in my favor if a casting director or agent stumbled upon my Facebook. They don’t call it a Broadway Body for nothin’!

C) Its not her place to warn me. Matt is fine with the pictures. My own mother has no problem with them. In fact, his super conservative Methodist father told him how proud he was of me. 

D) Sexually provocative? Please, I’m being the silliest in those shots. 

E) Anything good I do is always a negative.

F) I’m never going to be good enough for Matt in her eyes.

G) (This is secret, but sometimes my ED thoughts are in her voice)

H) Her own daughter, Matt’s sister whom I love dearly, has pictures of herself in bikinis and she’s 2 years younger than me. 

I) There shouldn’t be list that goes to I. 

/endrant

Just had a casual 30 min dance party with the roommate.
Which is great because I just could not get it together during my run!
But it was a good strength day!